The Hajj
Day Six
(Mission of the day: Stone the three pillars; perform circumambulation in Makkah; Supplicate abundantly; Go back home to Jeddah)
I saw people leaving tents with their luggage, trolleys and blankets. They were hoping to stone the pillars and then go directly to Makkah, in order to avoid coming back to the tents to pick up their luggage. We had some people who left as early as 10am, others at 11am, while some left at 12 noon. The 10am group came back with a success. They were the first ones to be there. The 11am group came back with no success. They claim that the police had formed a human chain around the group of probably 100s of people, and slowly shifted them away from the Jamaraat. This group told us that there is a the potential for a stampede. God, I hope not. We postponed our departure. We decided to leave after the late afternoon prayer. The catch was that if you delay your stay till evening prayer, you have to spend another night, stone the next day and then leave.
Soon news started to trickle in, from people returning to our camp with no success. “There’s been a stampede!” “About 50 people have been killed!” “100 people have died!” “No! 150 people have been crushed in the stampede!” The numbers were increasing each time someone came back to the tent. It was a horrible feeling. Why did it have to happen on the last day, when thankfully enough, everything went to well the previous days?
My parents and I left later in the afternoon. We were having our luggage delivered directly to Jeddah so thankfully we did not have to carry anything. The number of people seemed incredibly high, more so than on previous days. It was so crowded we were not able to get up on the ramp, and risked going on the ground floor. I saw people entering and leaving from the same opening. There were big neon signs, and ticker tape bulletins, asking the pilgrims to Calm Down, Do Not Enter, One Way….but no one was paying attention to these notices. There were ambulances lined up. God, I hope we don’t see any bodies here. There were policemen, military men and navy men all there, trying to control the over-enthusiastic crowd. Soon, we were caught up in the madness. People literally kicked you, pushed and shoved you, so much so, my dad and I stood on either side of my mom protecting her. Why can’t these people be patient?
We still managed to get to stone the three pillars, but it was amidst constant pushing, shoving, shouting, hitting, and walking over shoes, bags, and garbage. The whole experience of it made me realize that these people needed to be more patient, and only then can everything work out safely. But who’s to listen?
We made our way out from the Jamaraat. There is one more thing left for us to do to complete our Hajj: to perform circumambulation around the Kabaa in Makkah, the Farewell Tawaaf as it is called.
I remember when we were walking down the road from Mina to Makkah, when we saw about three Indian men, lying down on the floor, covered in a cloth. They all had their left arm missing. Their faces expressed such sadness, and evoked sympathy from me. They were so crippled, I felt compelled to give them money. I gave some to the first one, then to the second one, when suddenly there was an ambulance coming from behind us. In an instant, these three men, jumped up from their position, quickly wrapped their cloth, hid the money and literally ran to the side, hiding from what they probably thought were the police. They blended in with the crowd. We were in shock. Such con men taking advantage of pilgrims. Soon, these men went back to the middle of the road, laid down their mat, and got into the same position, making sad faces and raising their right hands for money.
Is it lawful for such beggars to mint money from unsuspecting pilgrims? I think not. They will be answerable for their actions, for deceiving people. As we walked further down the open road, we saw several other Indian men, all with missing left arms, and came to the conclusion that a leader has got these men, chopped off their left arms, and now forces them into beggary. Sad state of affairs. As the moment came nearer and nearer for us to finish our Hajj, and re-emter the reality that is in the world, my heart longed to stay here for the rest of my life.
We finally made it to Makkah, performed the circumambulation, and walked between the two mounts Safa and Marwa seven times. We prayed our prayers, and made “duas,” and came to realize that we are done with Hajj. Where has the time gone? Is it already over? I just felt like as if I was leaving Jeddah for Mina yesterday. For the first time since I’ve come to Hajj, I wept silently.
I came home to Jeddah, went straight to bed without changing. I was totally exhausted. My sleep was catching up to me. I slept for 13 hours straight!
Hajj accomplished.
Mansur
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Monday, January 30, 2006
The Hajj: Day Five
Hajj
Day Five
(Mission of the day: Stone the three pillars; perform circumambulation in Makkah)
Again, as we re-trace the steps of Prophet Muhammad (pbuh), we are to spend three days and two nights in Mina. The one thing we had to do was collect seven pebbles again, and stone the pillars, this time all three of them. My mom also accompanied my dad and I this time.
The process of stoning the pillars sounds easier than actually being there in person. Many people would attempt to go after the noon prayer, but we decided to go later after the evening prayer. The walk towards the Jamaraat was through a tunnel. Hoards of groups of people would pass through this tunnel. Once we got into the tunnel, I got goose bumps, as huge groups of people were all walking in one direction, saying out loud in Arabic in unison: Here I am O Lord, Here I am in response to you O Lord. To witness 1000s of people walking together towards the Jamaraat definitely connected me to them.
Like yesterday, the process of stoning went fairly easily. No pushing, no shoving, and all three of us managed to do it right from the front. I wish some of the pilgrims would understand that Satan doesn’t live in the pillars; otherwise they would not be shouting curses at the pillars.
We also went to Makkah today to do the Tawaaf. Again, 1000s of people were doing the same thing like us. Getting into that small van to get to the mosque in Makkah was probably one of the more exciting bus ride. Zipping in and out of the back streets of the city Makkah, we saw places, which we never saw before. We were seeing the city like we never saw it before. It was just awesome.
On our way back, there were no transport to take us back to Mina. They had blocked the tunnel, because some VIP guests were coming. This was pathetic. So we started walking. We walked about seven or eight kilometers, and it was no joke, because my mom was with us too. However, the walk was not too bad. The plight of some of the pilgrims was worse. These were people who we called squatters. They were sleeping out in the open, on the bridge, under the bridge, sidewalks, pavements every place where they could find a place to sleep.
There were garbage dumps all over. The city was in a mess. Which only made us thankful of our tents. If we were tired walking, the situation around us made thankful that we are at least getting to a clean tent. If we thirsty, we were thankful that we would get water at our tent unlike the people here. If we were feeling hot, we were thankful that we have AC in our tent, unlike these people out here. My point being, that I was being taught a huge lesson here. Every time I am down and in a complaining mood, I just have to look at the reality around me, and realize that things are not so bad for me after all. It put my whole thinking in perspective.
One thing I love about spending a couple of days later here after Eid in Mina is the spirit of community. There is no better example of unity in diversity. One reason for Hajj is for the gathering of Muslims from all over the world, who would come together, to discuss their issues and look out and support one another.
I don’t think I am ready to leave tomorrow for Jeddah. I want to live in world that was given to me here in Mina, where people should be like as God has originally envisioned them to be: courteous, helpful, morally upright, supportive and so on. It is only when we leave this environment that we enter into a world where people can be anything from nasty to morally decadent.
Mansur
Day Five
(Mission of the day: Stone the three pillars; perform circumambulation in Makkah)
Again, as we re-trace the steps of Prophet Muhammad (pbuh), we are to spend three days and two nights in Mina. The one thing we had to do was collect seven pebbles again, and stone the pillars, this time all three of them. My mom also accompanied my dad and I this time.
The process of stoning the pillars sounds easier than actually being there in person. Many people would attempt to go after the noon prayer, but we decided to go later after the evening prayer. The walk towards the Jamaraat was through a tunnel. Hoards of groups of people would pass through this tunnel. Once we got into the tunnel, I got goose bumps, as huge groups of people were all walking in one direction, saying out loud in Arabic in unison: Here I am O Lord, Here I am in response to you O Lord. To witness 1000s of people walking together towards the Jamaraat definitely connected me to them.
Like yesterday, the process of stoning went fairly easily. No pushing, no shoving, and all three of us managed to do it right from the front. I wish some of the pilgrims would understand that Satan doesn’t live in the pillars; otherwise they would not be shouting curses at the pillars.
We also went to Makkah today to do the Tawaaf. Again, 1000s of people were doing the same thing like us. Getting into that small van to get to the mosque in Makkah was probably one of the more exciting bus ride. Zipping in and out of the back streets of the city Makkah, we saw places, which we never saw before. We were seeing the city like we never saw it before. It was just awesome.
On our way back, there were no transport to take us back to Mina. They had blocked the tunnel, because some VIP guests were coming. This was pathetic. So we started walking. We walked about seven or eight kilometers, and it was no joke, because my mom was with us too. However, the walk was not too bad. The plight of some of the pilgrims was worse. These were people who we called squatters. They were sleeping out in the open, on the bridge, under the bridge, sidewalks, pavements every place where they could find a place to sleep.
There were garbage dumps all over. The city was in a mess. Which only made us thankful of our tents. If we were tired walking, the situation around us made thankful that we are at least getting to a clean tent. If we thirsty, we were thankful that we would get water at our tent unlike the people here. If we were feeling hot, we were thankful that we have AC in our tent, unlike these people out here. My point being, that I was being taught a huge lesson here. Every time I am down and in a complaining mood, I just have to look at the reality around me, and realize that things are not so bad for me after all. It put my whole thinking in perspective.
One thing I love about spending a couple of days later here after Eid in Mina is the spirit of community. There is no better example of unity in diversity. One reason for Hajj is for the gathering of Muslims from all over the world, who would come together, to discuss their issues and look out and support one another.
I don’t think I am ready to leave tomorrow for Jeddah. I want to live in world that was given to me here in Mina, where people should be like as God has originally envisioned them to be: courteous, helpful, morally upright, supportive and so on. It is only when we leave this environment that we enter into a world where people can be anything from nasty to morally decadent.
Mansur
Saturday, January 28, 2006
The Hajj: Day Four
Day Four
Muzdalifah to Mina
Eid today
(Mission of the day: Get to Mina from Muzdalifah, throw 7 pebbles at pillar (large one only), spend night in Mina)
I was rudely awoken up by a large group of people, who started talking noisily and packing up their stuff. It’s only 3am, and there still an hour and a half to go for the morning prayer. We are supposed to pray the prayer and then leave Muzdalifah. I was up now, and there were very slim chances of me getting to bed. The weather had become really cold though and I lay still for few more minutes. I could not wear a jacket, as all I had on was the two sheets of white unsewn cloths. Lying there, out in the open area, I could not tell if I was in 2006 or 1400 years ago. I felt a very strong connection to the people who were here 1400 years ago. What was it like in those days? Was the Hajj easier to perform or was it as challenging as it is today? I wonder how people were like back then? A loud honk from the black vip GMC brought me back to 2006.
In a way it was good I was up, because I managed to get to use the toilets rather quickly. I must say I was really glad I did not have to use the toilet from my behind. I was not in the mood to use my left hand to wipe my behind. I was very happy with releasing liquids only! I got tea and biscuits from the nearby coffee shop (of course, the prices were jacked up to make profits) and joined my parents who had now woken up. Soon, others were getting up, and we finally prayed the prayer and made a move back to our buses.
Watching the sin rise in the horizon reveled the entire scenario to me. I was very impressed with the people who chose to walk back to Mina. There were people who did not have the luxury to travel in cars or buses, and there were people for whom a special way was made for their vip treatment. I deeply appreciated the older men and women who walked back to their camps. Another three to four hours were spent on our ride back. I was mostly sleeping, but what little I was awake, I was in awe of watching everyone going back.
Today is Eid. We saw some slaughterhouses were mass sacrifices of sheeps and camels were being taken place. Since we were doing the Hajj Ifrad, we were not obligated to offer any sacrifice, but those who did the other two kinds of Hajj, were obligated to sacrifice a sheep or a camel. The sacrificial meat was then distributed to the poor people.
A major part of our mission today involved stoning the pillar. I read up on it and I was pleasantly surprised to know the history behind it. Jamaarat is the place where there are three pillars. These three pillars represent the three places where prophet Abraham was tempted by Satan to sacrifice his child. There is a small pillar, a medium pillar and a large pillar. We were only to stone the large pillar today.
My mom did not come with my dad and I, because the number of people there was incredible. Some men from our tent had done the stoning immediately, had their heads shaved and did their circumambulation in Makkah, which is required. Others, like us, chose to wait to go later in the afternoon to let the crowds die down. My father and I set afoot, and soon we were just two people in the midst of thousands and thousands of people walking towards the Jamaarat.
There are two levels from where we could stone the pillars. We went on the upper one, since the direction was one way, whereas on the ground floor the situation was such that people were entering and exiting from the same place. We passed the small pillar, and then the medium pillar, and finally arrived to the large pillar. Thankfully the crowd had died down and my father and I stood right at the front. I took out the seven pebbles I had collected for myself, and for my dad. With a pebble in my hand, I lunged it forward. With is I said, “Allah—akbar” (God is Great). I did this each time I threw the pebble. I saw people throwing their shoes, and one even threw his umbrella. People fail to understand that Satan does not live in this pillar, but that stoning the pillar is a very symbolic act. It is an act that we perform to symbolize our resistance to Satan’s temptations in our lives.
After the stoning, my father and I got the opportunity to go to Makkah from Mina to our friend’s house. We can take off our ihram today. Somehow I wanted to keep it on. I liked it so much; I wanted to wear it for longer. I was beginning to miss it already. When we got to Makkah, my dad and I had our hair cut from each side. A quick shower later, we were back in our normal clothes.
Coming back to our camp in Mina, many people had had their heads shaved. The Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) said that he prays once for those who cut their hair, and thrice for those who shave their heads, so naturally many shaved their heads. Even that cute kid had shaved his head. Our friends were also back in the camp, and we talked with them for a while over dinner. By 11pm or so, we were dead-tired and went to sleep.
I was beginning to feel so much at home. The simplicity I seek in life, I found it right here. I did not want to leave Mina. I was hoping that time would pass by extremely slow so I can make the most of my time here. I wanted to stay put and be here, because I felt connected to God.
Mansur
Muzdalifah to Mina
Eid today
(Mission of the day: Get to Mina from Muzdalifah, throw 7 pebbles at pillar (large one only), spend night in Mina)
I was rudely awoken up by a large group of people, who started talking noisily and packing up their stuff. It’s only 3am, and there still an hour and a half to go for the morning prayer. We are supposed to pray the prayer and then leave Muzdalifah. I was up now, and there were very slim chances of me getting to bed. The weather had become really cold though and I lay still for few more minutes. I could not wear a jacket, as all I had on was the two sheets of white unsewn cloths. Lying there, out in the open area, I could not tell if I was in 2006 or 1400 years ago. I felt a very strong connection to the people who were here 1400 years ago. What was it like in those days? Was the Hajj easier to perform or was it as challenging as it is today? I wonder how people were like back then? A loud honk from the black vip GMC brought me back to 2006.
In a way it was good I was up, because I managed to get to use the toilets rather quickly. I must say I was really glad I did not have to use the toilet from my behind. I was not in the mood to use my left hand to wipe my behind. I was very happy with releasing liquids only! I got tea and biscuits from the nearby coffee shop (of course, the prices were jacked up to make profits) and joined my parents who had now woken up. Soon, others were getting up, and we finally prayed the prayer and made a move back to our buses.
Watching the sin rise in the horizon reveled the entire scenario to me. I was very impressed with the people who chose to walk back to Mina. There were people who did not have the luxury to travel in cars or buses, and there were people for whom a special way was made for their vip treatment. I deeply appreciated the older men and women who walked back to their camps. Another three to four hours were spent on our ride back. I was mostly sleeping, but what little I was awake, I was in awe of watching everyone going back.
Today is Eid. We saw some slaughterhouses were mass sacrifices of sheeps and camels were being taken place. Since we were doing the Hajj Ifrad, we were not obligated to offer any sacrifice, but those who did the other two kinds of Hajj, were obligated to sacrifice a sheep or a camel. The sacrificial meat was then distributed to the poor people.
A major part of our mission today involved stoning the pillar. I read up on it and I was pleasantly surprised to know the history behind it. Jamaarat is the place where there are three pillars. These three pillars represent the three places where prophet Abraham was tempted by Satan to sacrifice his child. There is a small pillar, a medium pillar and a large pillar. We were only to stone the large pillar today.
My mom did not come with my dad and I, because the number of people there was incredible. Some men from our tent had done the stoning immediately, had their heads shaved and did their circumambulation in Makkah, which is required. Others, like us, chose to wait to go later in the afternoon to let the crowds die down. My father and I set afoot, and soon we were just two people in the midst of thousands and thousands of people walking towards the Jamaarat.
There are two levels from where we could stone the pillars. We went on the upper one, since the direction was one way, whereas on the ground floor the situation was such that people were entering and exiting from the same place. We passed the small pillar, and then the medium pillar, and finally arrived to the large pillar. Thankfully the crowd had died down and my father and I stood right at the front. I took out the seven pebbles I had collected for myself, and for my dad. With a pebble in my hand, I lunged it forward. With is I said, “Allah—akbar” (God is Great). I did this each time I threw the pebble. I saw people throwing their shoes, and one even threw his umbrella. People fail to understand that Satan does not live in this pillar, but that stoning the pillar is a very symbolic act. It is an act that we perform to symbolize our resistance to Satan’s temptations in our lives.
After the stoning, my father and I got the opportunity to go to Makkah from Mina to our friend’s house. We can take off our ihram today. Somehow I wanted to keep it on. I liked it so much; I wanted to wear it for longer. I was beginning to miss it already. When we got to Makkah, my dad and I had our hair cut from each side. A quick shower later, we were back in our normal clothes.
Coming back to our camp in Mina, many people had had their heads shaved. The Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) said that he prays once for those who cut their hair, and thrice for those who shave their heads, so naturally many shaved their heads. Even that cute kid had shaved his head. Our friends were also back in the camp, and we talked with them for a while over dinner. By 11pm or so, we were dead-tired and went to sleep.
I was beginning to feel so much at home. The simplicity I seek in life, I found it right here. I did not want to leave Mina. I was hoping that time would pass by extremely slow so I can make the most of my time here. I wanted to stay put and be here, because I felt connected to God.
Mansur
Friday, January 27, 2006
The Hajj: Day Three
Day Three
(Mission for the day: Pray morning prayer in Mina; go to Arafat, pray and supplicate, leave before evening prayer; go to Muzdalifah, spend the night, collect 7 pebbles)
We prayed the morning prayer, and the imam again gave a small lecture, and I stayed awake, reading my book of supplications. I ate breakfast today. We got cornflakes, milk, sugar, bread and Kiri cheese. What? No butter? Oh well, I will have to make do with cheese. That kid is finally awake. Thank God, otherwise I would have definitely poked him to see if he was alive!
Today we are going to Arafat, where historically speaking, the prophet Muhammad (pbuh) gave his final speech to his followers. Immediately after breakfast, as soon as the first signs of sunlight began to show in the horizon, people from our tent started picking up their belongings and walking downhill to where or bus would pick us up. I realized that there were more people today than yesterday. The Arabs had descended on the other side of our compound, and they were going to share the same bathrooms with us!
My parents and I picked up our sleeping bags, blankets and our personal belongings, and walked down to our meeting place. It was pure exhilaration to see large groups of people walking towards their buses. There was a mass exodus of people from Mina to Arafat. It was extremely crucial to get to Arafat today, because The Prophet (pbuh) said: The Hajj is Arafat.
The traffic jam tested our patience. For a distance that only a few kilometers, it took us four hours to cover that distance. It’s understandable because there are millions of people trying to get to the same spot. I tell you, this was probably one of the best road journeys. No other road journey has exposed me to such an incredible number of people from all over the world, dressed in same clothes, sitting inside and on top of buses. People from Kenya, Turkey, Philippines, Pakistan, India, Bangladesh, Nigeria, Sudan, Egyptians, Saudis, Europeans, Bosnians, Malaysians and countless others. Stuck in a traffic jam in our huge bus on a road that’s only four lanes wide was one of the most enjoyable experiences. I remember one pick up truck in the middle, which was occupied by three adults and two kids, who were throwing bottles of waters to all the pilgrims. To see bottles of water flying across roads, being caught with absolute glee by pilgrims sitting on top of their buses was definitely a Kodak moment. Of course, some bottles were missed which would crash on the bus and split open, showering the people with water! The immense joy of these pilgrims was infectious, and I could not help but smile and wave at them with a friendly gesture and be amazed at the wonderful creations of God.
Four hours later, we were finally in our tent in Arafat. There is a small mountain not far from here, often dubbed as Mountain of Mercy, where people were jam-packed. In our tent, we prayed our prayers and then were served lunch, which again was not spectacular. After lunch, a few men went to sleep, while I got out my book of prayers and read my supplications, over and over. About a hour into supplicating, I went outside of the tent and stood there, facing the Qibla. I raised my hands, and for about a little over an hour, I prayed for every single person I know. This is where my email to all my friends asking for any prayer requests came in handy. I prayed for my parents, my family, my friends, my relatives, and for the Muslim world in general. It was important for me to stand and pray because that is part of what praying is about in Arafat. I don’t think I could recall a moment before in my life where I could say I felt closest to God than this moment of standing here, looking skywards, asking sincerely for forgiveness. God tells us that the day in Arafat is a day when “Allah frees as many of his servants from the Fire.” This is the day when “Allah boasts to the angels about the people” who have come to Arafat, and says to the angels, “what do they want?” And all we ask for is His favor and Forgiveness.
Our imam led us into a collective prayer, where he eventually started weeping, and then later lost his voice, which made his "dua" undecipherable. I think his crying led some of the men to cry as well. It was a chain reaction of sorts. The people closest to him started weeping, and then the middle group started to weep and finally the ones at the end started to weep. I was trying so hard to understand what he was saying in between his he sobs, I could not make out. I think I was the only person in the tent who was not crying (although I had wept a little when I was standing earlier and supplicating). I asked my dad if we was able to understand the imam, and he said no too. So I wonder, why were the people crying? Were they really genuinely crying, or was it because a our imam, our leader, was crying that led the other to cry too. Well, whatever it was, there was a lot of crying, and then as soon as the "dua" was over, all the crying stopped in an instant, and people were roaming about looking for tea and company.
Evening had come, and the next part of the mission is to go to Muzdalifah. Again, a distance of only a few kilometers, took about four hours to cover. Again a mass exodus of people from Arafat to Muzdalifah was taking place. The buses, people, cars, trucks, carts, every one and everything were on its way out of Arafat. I get goose bumps, even as I write this now, when I was going on the same road as the millions of other people. I just get this realization that I am part of a bigger group, a bigger community that I belong to.
It was quite cold when we finally reached in Muzdalifah. Here, as we re-traced the steps of our Prophet (pbuh), we have to spend a night out in the open. We laid down our sleeping bags and lied down. My parents went to sleep rather quickly. Our friends from the UK also chose to be next to us (tolerating more British accent!) I went up to a small mountain that was close by to collect 7 pebbles each for myself, and my parents. Pilgrims in white ihram were climbing all the hills in this area, and from a distance it looked like as if it had snowed on the mountains.
Finding a secluded spot, I stayed on top of the hill for quite a while, contemplating on who I am, and what my purpose in life is. Why am I here on Hajj? What is the meaning of my life? What does it mean to be a Muslim?
Mansur
(Mission for the day: Pray morning prayer in Mina; go to Arafat, pray and supplicate, leave before evening prayer; go to Muzdalifah, spend the night, collect 7 pebbles)
We prayed the morning prayer, and the imam again gave a small lecture, and I stayed awake, reading my book of supplications. I ate breakfast today. We got cornflakes, milk, sugar, bread and Kiri cheese. What? No butter? Oh well, I will have to make do with cheese. That kid is finally awake. Thank God, otherwise I would have definitely poked him to see if he was alive!
Today we are going to Arafat, where historically speaking, the prophet Muhammad (pbuh) gave his final speech to his followers. Immediately after breakfast, as soon as the first signs of sunlight began to show in the horizon, people from our tent started picking up their belongings and walking downhill to where or bus would pick us up. I realized that there were more people today than yesterday. The Arabs had descended on the other side of our compound, and they were going to share the same bathrooms with us!
My parents and I picked up our sleeping bags, blankets and our personal belongings, and walked down to our meeting place. It was pure exhilaration to see large groups of people walking towards their buses. There was a mass exodus of people from Mina to Arafat. It was extremely crucial to get to Arafat today, because The Prophet (pbuh) said: The Hajj is Arafat.
The traffic jam tested our patience. For a distance that only a few kilometers, it took us four hours to cover that distance. It’s understandable because there are millions of people trying to get to the same spot. I tell you, this was probably one of the best road journeys. No other road journey has exposed me to such an incredible number of people from all over the world, dressed in same clothes, sitting inside and on top of buses. People from Kenya, Turkey, Philippines, Pakistan, India, Bangladesh, Nigeria, Sudan, Egyptians, Saudis, Europeans, Bosnians, Malaysians and countless others. Stuck in a traffic jam in our huge bus on a road that’s only four lanes wide was one of the most enjoyable experiences. I remember one pick up truck in the middle, which was occupied by three adults and two kids, who were throwing bottles of waters to all the pilgrims. To see bottles of water flying across roads, being caught with absolute glee by pilgrims sitting on top of their buses was definitely a Kodak moment. Of course, some bottles were missed which would crash on the bus and split open, showering the people with water! The immense joy of these pilgrims was infectious, and I could not help but smile and wave at them with a friendly gesture and be amazed at the wonderful creations of God.
Four hours later, we were finally in our tent in Arafat. There is a small mountain not far from here, often dubbed as Mountain of Mercy, where people were jam-packed. In our tent, we prayed our prayers and then were served lunch, which again was not spectacular. After lunch, a few men went to sleep, while I got out my book of prayers and read my supplications, over and over. About a hour into supplicating, I went outside of the tent and stood there, facing the Qibla. I raised my hands, and for about a little over an hour, I prayed for every single person I know. This is where my email to all my friends asking for any prayer requests came in handy. I prayed for my parents, my family, my friends, my relatives, and for the Muslim world in general. It was important for me to stand and pray because that is part of what praying is about in Arafat. I don’t think I could recall a moment before in my life where I could say I felt closest to God than this moment of standing here, looking skywards, asking sincerely for forgiveness. God tells us that the day in Arafat is a day when “Allah frees as many of his servants from the Fire.” This is the day when “Allah boasts to the angels about the people” who have come to Arafat, and says to the angels, “what do they want?” And all we ask for is His favor and Forgiveness.
Our imam led us into a collective prayer, where he eventually started weeping, and then later lost his voice, which made his "dua" undecipherable. I think his crying led some of the men to cry as well. It was a chain reaction of sorts. The people closest to him started weeping, and then the middle group started to weep and finally the ones at the end started to weep. I was trying so hard to understand what he was saying in between his he sobs, I could not make out. I think I was the only person in the tent who was not crying (although I had wept a little when I was standing earlier and supplicating). I asked my dad if we was able to understand the imam, and he said no too. So I wonder, why were the people crying? Were they really genuinely crying, or was it because a our imam, our leader, was crying that led the other to cry too. Well, whatever it was, there was a lot of crying, and then as soon as the "dua" was over, all the crying stopped in an instant, and people were roaming about looking for tea and company.
Evening had come, and the next part of the mission is to go to Muzdalifah. Again, a distance of only a few kilometers, took about four hours to cover. Again a mass exodus of people from Arafat to Muzdalifah was taking place. The buses, people, cars, trucks, carts, every one and everything were on its way out of Arafat. I get goose bumps, even as I write this now, when I was going on the same road as the millions of other people. I just get this realization that I am part of a bigger group, a bigger community that I belong to.
It was quite cold when we finally reached in Muzdalifah. Here, as we re-traced the steps of our Prophet (pbuh), we have to spend a night out in the open. We laid down our sleeping bags and lied down. My parents went to sleep rather quickly. Our friends from the UK also chose to be next to us (tolerating more British accent!) I went up to a small mountain that was close by to collect 7 pebbles each for myself, and my parents. Pilgrims in white ihram were climbing all the hills in this area, and from a distance it looked like as if it had snowed on the mountains.
Finding a secluded spot, I stayed on top of the hill for quite a while, contemplating on who I am, and what my purpose in life is. Why am I here on Hajj? What is the meaning of my life? What does it mean to be a Muslim?
Mansur
Thursday, January 26, 2006
The Hajj: Day Two
Day 2
Mina: The Day of Tarwiyah
(Mission for the day: Pray all the prayers in Mina, supplicate, remember God, continure to recite Talbiyah )
Did not get much sleep since we only got in late to Mina. The call for morning prayer woke us all up. Long lines formed at the bathrooms. There were four built toilets, and three portable ones. Why wasn’t anyone going to the portable ones? I did not bother to find out. There were about 10 sinks, where my dad and I brushed our teeth today. Some people were giving us bad stares, as if we should not be brshing our teeth because we are still in ihram. Thankfully, the lines at the toilets were not too long, so our turn came rather quickly. Coming back to the tent, I saw some people still asleep. In particular, I saw a rather cute young boy, all wrapped up in his white ihram, sleeping away ever so peacefully. There were also some adults who were snoring away.
After prayer, there was a lecture by our imam, who told us everything what Hajj would comprise of, giving a brief “what to do and what not to do” while in state of ihram. Due to the heavy Urdu being spoken, I began to drift off and went to sleep immediately. I guess when you are really tired, you are willing to sleep anywhere, even in a tent filled with 60 other men. The AC was off on our side, but was on the other side. The cool air blew all the way up into the slope of the tent, to the center, then down to our side.I remember breakfast being served, but I slept all the way through to the next prayer in the afternoon. Again, the whole process of lining up for the toilets, doing the ablution and praying in congregation. Still there were some people sleeping, including that young guy, I think he’s been sleeping for 24 hours now!
Lunch was served. Lunch surely made me appreciate the home-cooked meals a lot more. Goodness, I appreciate even my own cooking! Lunch was not spectacular, but it was important to remember that I was on Hajj, which is a time focused more the spirital aspect, and not worldly matters. So keeping that in mind, I did not mind eating the rice and under-cooked chicken. I guess I was not in a position to demand a vegetarian pizza or chicken fajitas!
I talked briefly with the guys who were sleeping next to me. One of them was a Pakistani who had come to Saudi Arabia from the UK. I over heard his strong British accent, and it somewhat annoyed me, But, being in a state of ihram, I had to learn to drop all my prejudices and learn to accept people for who they are. The other two guys were Pakistanis, who grew up in Jeddah, went to America and came back as born-again Muslims. They spoke with a typical American accent. We did not talk for long, but the little that we did talk, it was fun.
For the rest of the day in Mina, we prayed the other three prayers. My parents and I later took a small tour by foot of the city of Mina. It was a sight to see. Mina is the place where all the pilgrims come to stay the night on the first day of Hajj. I could very well imagine how close to a 3 million people were all in this city. It was filled with tents after tents. There were just so many people, I simpy could not grasp the sitation in its entirety. Tonight, I was prepared for the upcoming Hajj. Today was a relatively easy day, for we stayed in Mina and prayed the prayers. Tomorrow, we go to Arafat. There were also quite a few young enterprising Saudis who were using their motorbikes as taxis, picking and dropping passengers.
I am getting used to my ihram. It’s not a bad dress after all. It’s very liberating (if you know what I mean.) The tent is getting cold now as I go to sleep at 11pm. Mina is cold anyways. That kid is sleeping! When will he get up? I think I should poke him to see if he is alive.
Mansur
Mina: The Day of Tarwiyah
(Mission for the day: Pray all the prayers in Mina, supplicate, remember God, continure to recite Talbiyah )
Did not get much sleep since we only got in late to Mina. The call for morning prayer woke us all up. Long lines formed at the bathrooms. There were four built toilets, and three portable ones. Why wasn’t anyone going to the portable ones? I did not bother to find out. There were about 10 sinks, where my dad and I brushed our teeth today. Some people were giving us bad stares, as if we should not be brshing our teeth because we are still in ihram. Thankfully, the lines at the toilets were not too long, so our turn came rather quickly. Coming back to the tent, I saw some people still asleep. In particular, I saw a rather cute young boy, all wrapped up in his white ihram, sleeping away ever so peacefully. There were also some adults who were snoring away.
After prayer, there was a lecture by our imam, who told us everything what Hajj would comprise of, giving a brief “what to do and what not to do” while in state of ihram. Due to the heavy Urdu being spoken, I began to drift off and went to sleep immediately. I guess when you are really tired, you are willing to sleep anywhere, even in a tent filled with 60 other men. The AC was off on our side, but was on the other side. The cool air blew all the way up into the slope of the tent, to the center, then down to our side.I remember breakfast being served, but I slept all the way through to the next prayer in the afternoon. Again, the whole process of lining up for the toilets, doing the ablution and praying in congregation. Still there were some people sleeping, including that young guy, I think he’s been sleeping for 24 hours now!
Lunch was served. Lunch surely made me appreciate the home-cooked meals a lot more. Goodness, I appreciate even my own cooking! Lunch was not spectacular, but it was important to remember that I was on Hajj, which is a time focused more the spirital aspect, and not worldly matters. So keeping that in mind, I did not mind eating the rice and under-cooked chicken. I guess I was not in a position to demand a vegetarian pizza or chicken fajitas!
I talked briefly with the guys who were sleeping next to me. One of them was a Pakistani who had come to Saudi Arabia from the UK. I over heard his strong British accent, and it somewhat annoyed me, But, being in a state of ihram, I had to learn to drop all my prejudices and learn to accept people for who they are. The other two guys were Pakistanis, who grew up in Jeddah, went to America and came back as born-again Muslims. They spoke with a typical American accent. We did not talk for long, but the little that we did talk, it was fun.
For the rest of the day in Mina, we prayed the other three prayers. My parents and I later took a small tour by foot of the city of Mina. It was a sight to see. Mina is the place where all the pilgrims come to stay the night on the first day of Hajj. I could very well imagine how close to a 3 million people were all in this city. It was filled with tents after tents. There were just so many people, I simpy could not grasp the sitation in its entirety. Tonight, I was prepared for the upcoming Hajj. Today was a relatively easy day, for we stayed in Mina and prayed the prayers. Tomorrow, we go to Arafat. There were also quite a few young enterprising Saudis who were using their motorbikes as taxis, picking and dropping passengers.
I am getting used to my ihram. It’s not a bad dress after all. It’s very liberating (if you know what I mean.) The tent is getting cold now as I go to sleep at 11pm. Mina is cold anyways. That kid is sleeping! When will he get up? I think I should poke him to see if he is alive.
Mansur
Thursday, January 19, 2006
The Hajj: Day One
The Hajj
By Far the Most Intense and Rewarding Journey of my Life!
Day One
Jeddah to Mina
Jeddah to Mina
We all have made journeys all over the world. We travel to exotic locations and visit new places. It all is exciting as we discover new people and cultures. Even though I knew I would be performing the Hajj this year, I certainly was not prepared to be affected so profoundly from undertaking what I would consider the world's most intense, most rewarding, and the most spiritual journey. By far, performing the Hajj has beaten all the other journeys I have undertaken in my life (I cannot even compare the Hajj to other travels!) I am not going to give you a blow by blow account of what the Hajj comprises of, but more of what my experiences and thoughts.
I did not know what to expect exactly on this journey as we set out to our meeting place in the old part of Jeddah. Many people had told me so many stories and experiences when they went to Hajj. A lot of it centered on the negative experiences they had, but I was prepared to go with a completely open mind and attitude, because to me this was to become a very personal journey.
As you all know, one has to be in a state of "ihram", which meant that I had to wear two pieces of unstitched cloth. One was wrapped around me like a sarong, and the other wrapped over my chest. I was allowed to perfume myself before I changed into this attire, and I was thankful because for the next three days, I would have to be in my "ihram."
There were four huge 60-seater buses waiting to take our group. Before boarding our bus, I bumped into a friend who went to school with my brother. We are family friends, and meeting him certainly made the beginning of the Hajj experience a great one. We left about two hours late, and drove towards the city of Makkah, through which we come to the city of Mina. We arrived there by 3am. All roads leading to this city were jam-packed, with 1000s of men and women walking towards their camp. I was so amazed to see every single man dressed in white, and many women in black. Just witnessing a huge sea of men and women in two colors walking towards their camp made me feel like as if I was a part of humanity.
Our camp was located on a hill, on which we had to walk up with our luggage. Just being there, with so many thousands of other pilgrims made this moment a very surreal one. Everyone else who is here is here for the same purpose as I: to seek forgivess from God and to seek nearness to Him.
By the time we settled into our tent, which was filled with 60 other men, I was mentally prepared for the next one week, during which I would be retracing the steps of the Prohet Muhammad (pbuh), and to perform the pilgrimage rites (which I will explain later). Right from the moment I had entered into the state of ihram, I began reciting the Arabic talbiya, which is translated as:
"I respond to You, O Lord, I respond, I respond- No partner is there to You, I respond.
All praise and favor is Yours, and sovreignty. There is no partner but You."
I was beginning to learn new things as I read the above phrase in Arabic over and over. I was already being made aware of what I could and could not do in the state of ihram. I realized that there are three kinds of Hajj, of which I was doing one. I was beginning this immense journey with a mind like that of a newborn baby. I was beginning to see my reason for doing this Hajj. It was no mistake that I was brought to Hajj by God this year. I just could not imagine what this awesome jorney would be like as I drifted off to sleep, saying in my heart over and over: All praise and favor is Yours, and sovreignty.
Mansur
PS. I am sorry I cannot get my pictures up since Flickr, and Photobucket are blocked in Saudi Arabia. I wish I could share my pictures with you since they would make you feel like you were right there with me on Hajj. My email is lifeofmansur@yahoo.com. Just email me and I will send you the pictures if you are interested.
Saturday, January 14, 2006
Back from Hajj
Hello friends,
I am finally back from the Hajj, and I must tell what an amazing journey it has been for me. A very intense spiritual journey one for me. Right from the evening I left Jeddah for Mina, I have had huge emotional moments, which is still ringing in my soul. I have so much to share with you all; the effect of Hajj has been so profound on me, so much so, my mind is still in Mina/ Arafat/ Makkah. I have had moments of joy and moments where I wept. I have had moments of sheer exhilaration witnessing the mass gathering of so many Muslims in one city all doing the same thing with me, to moments of getting goosebumps all over hearing large groups of people saying the same verse from the Quran over and over. The fact that my parents and I were two hours away from being caught in the stampede in Mina which killed 400+ people made me realize that maybe God has given me a new lease of life.
If God has been so kind to give me the world's most amazing opportunity to do the Hajj, what am I willing to do for God?
That is what I will be pondering over for the next few days. I am just so touched spiritually by the whole journey, I feel I want to do it all over again, right now!
I just have so many experiences to share with you(including making friends with two guys who could potentially be my life-long friends) so if you can bear with me, I will need a couple of days to organize my journal and pictures and soon have them posted up here. (Thank God Flickr is up and working so you all can see my pictures!)
See you in a few days!
Mansur
I am finally back from the Hajj, and I must tell what an amazing journey it has been for me. A very intense spiritual journey one for me. Right from the evening I left Jeddah for Mina, I have had huge emotional moments, which is still ringing in my soul. I have so much to share with you all; the effect of Hajj has been so profound on me, so much so, my mind is still in Mina/ Arafat/ Makkah. I have had moments of joy and moments where I wept. I have had moments of sheer exhilaration witnessing the mass gathering of so many Muslims in one city all doing the same thing with me, to moments of getting goosebumps all over hearing large groups of people saying the same verse from the Quran over and over. The fact that my parents and I were two hours away from being caught in the stampede in Mina which killed 400+ people made me realize that maybe God has given me a new lease of life.
If God has been so kind to give me the world's most amazing opportunity to do the Hajj, what am I willing to do for God?
That is what I will be pondering over for the next few days. I am just so touched spiritually by the whole journey, I feel I want to do it all over again, right now!
I just have so many experiences to share with you(including making friends with two guys who could potentially be my life-long friends) so if you can bear with me, I will need a couple of days to organize my journal and pictures and soon have them posted up here. (Thank God Flickr is up and working so you all can see my pictures!)
See you in a few days!
Mansur
Saturday, January 07, 2006
Off to Hajj!
Hello friends,
Tonight, the 7th of January, at 9pm, my parents and I are setting out with a group of 50 people on a bus to Mina. This will mark the beginning of our Hajj this year. I will be gone for the whole week performing my Hajj. I am blessed with an amazing opportunity to perform Hajj this year, given the fact my parents leave the Kingdom this year for good. I shall come back on Thursday, inshallah. I feel like taking on a role of a CNN reporter and blogging everything from there too, which I may do so later next week. Right now, I am much excited to embark on this pilgrimage which celebrates unity in diversity with such grandeur and amazement!
Take care you all! (don't miss me too much :-) )
Mansur
Tonight, the 7th of January, at 9pm, my parents and I are setting out with a group of 50 people on a bus to Mina. This will mark the beginning of our Hajj this year. I will be gone for the whole week performing my Hajj. I am blessed with an amazing opportunity to perform Hajj this year, given the fact my parents leave the Kingdom this year for good. I shall come back on Thursday, inshallah. I feel like taking on a role of a CNN reporter and blogging everything from there too, which I may do so later next week. Right now, I am much excited to embark on this pilgrimage which celebrates unity in diversity with such grandeur and amazement!
Take care you all! (don't miss me too much :-) )
Mansur
Thursday, January 05, 2006
10,000 Visitors!
Hey all,
I finally made it to the first 10,000 visitors. I am very proud of the achievment I made by having 10,000 "unique" visitors visit my blog. It may have taken me more than a year to get this target, but nevertheless, a HUGE thank you to all who have contributed to this figure. (I know there are other blogs out there who get 10,000 visitors daily, so my blog doesn't seem that amazing). But to know that there are people out there who are willing to listen to what Life of Mansur is all about, I think is very impressive.
Mansur
Summary
Daily Unique:
Today 17 / 05 Jan, Thu, 2006
Yesterday 23 / 04 Jan, Wed, 2006
Average 43 Visitors per Day
Highest Day 136 / 20 Jul, Wed, 2005
Totals:
Unique Visitors 10014 - 85.58%
Visits incl. Reloads 11701
Reloads 1687 - 14.42%
Visitors via Referrers 5565 - 55.57%
Weekly Unique:
Current Week 97 / Wk 01
Last Week 190 / Wk 52
Average 294 Visitors per Week
I finally made it to the first 10,000 visitors. I am very proud of the achievment I made by having 10,000 "unique" visitors visit my blog. It may have taken me more than a year to get this target, but nevertheless, a HUGE thank you to all who have contributed to this figure. (I know there are other blogs out there who get 10,000 visitors daily, so my blog doesn't seem that amazing). But to know that there are people out there who are willing to listen to what Life of Mansur is all about, I think is very impressive.
Mansur
Summary
Daily Unique:
Today 17 / 05 Jan, Thu, 2006
Yesterday 23 / 04 Jan, Wed, 2006
Average 43 Visitors per Day
Highest Day 136 / 20 Jul, Wed, 2005
Totals:
Unique Visitors 10014 - 85.58%
Visits incl. Reloads 11701
Reloads 1687 - 14.42%
Visitors via Referrers 5565 - 55.57%
Weekly Unique:
Current Week 97 / Wk 01
Last Week 190 / Wk 52
Average 294 Visitors per Week
Monday, January 02, 2006
2005: Life of Mansur in Review
Hello friends,
Since everyone was doing a New Year's resolution thing, I decided to take that concept and do something else with it. I usually don't do this on such a world-wide platform like my blog, but I decided to do it anyway. What I am going to share with you are the most important things that I feel have impacted me in all ways. These things include something as minor as the iPod to major experiences like the earthquake in Pakistan. Without further ado, here are some of the the more important things/ experiences than countless others for me in the year 2005.
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Sudoku
I don't think there is anyone here who doesn't know what this is. It's been a tradition in my house that my mom and I would collectively do the crosswords, especially the ones by Thomas Joseph. However, my mom and brother got involved in Sudoku last summers in the UK, and about three weeks ago, I got hooked on to them, so much so, I have to do one daily. It is a Japanese game, which has swept the world over. What you have to do is fill in the missing numbers in a grid of 9x9, which in itself consists of 9 grids of 3x3. Each 3x3 grid has to have 1-9 and each row and column in the 9x9 grid has to have 1-9, with no repeptition. It's very stimulating and gets my brain to think. (I have always been bad with numbers, which is why I feel very rewarded when I solve a Sudoku game!)
Blogging
For most of 2005 I spent a large amount of my time dedicated to my blog. I made huge efforts to update it daily. Blogging has been on the whole a very rewarding experience for me, and I hope it will continue to be. I got connected with people out there in cyberspace, people who I have never met, seen nor talked to, yet feel connected because we share similar ideas. There have been few times when I have had skirmishes with certain people out there, but those moments only caused me to be more stronger and take in criticism more positively. On another note, I met my fellow blogger friend in Riyadh two days ago, which has been very fulfilling! It's always great to see you Xena!
Since everyone was doing a New Year's resolution thing, I decided to take that concept and do something else with it. I usually don't do this on such a world-wide platform like my blog, but I decided to do it anyway. What I am going to share with you are the most important things that I feel have impacted me in all ways. These things include something as minor as the iPod to major experiences like the earthquake in Pakistan. Without further ado, here are some of the the more important things/ experiences than countless others for me in the year 2005.
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Sudoku
I don't think there is anyone here who doesn't know what this is. It's been a tradition in my house that my mom and I would collectively do the crosswords, especially the ones by Thomas Joseph. However, my mom and brother got involved in Sudoku last summers in the UK, and about three weeks ago, I got hooked on to them, so much so, I have to do one daily. It is a Japanese game, which has swept the world over. What you have to do is fill in the missing numbers in a grid of 9x9, which in itself consists of 9 grids of 3x3. Each 3x3 grid has to have 1-9 and each row and column in the 9x9 grid has to have 1-9, with no repeptition. It's very stimulating and gets my brain to think. (I have always been bad with numbers, which is why I feel very rewarded when I solve a Sudoku game!)
Blogging
For most of 2005 I spent a large amount of my time dedicated to my blog. I made huge efforts to update it daily. Blogging has been on the whole a very rewarding experience for me, and I hope it will continue to be. I got connected with people out there in cyberspace, people who I have never met, seen nor talked to, yet feel connected because we share similar ideas. There have been few times when I have had skirmishes with certain people out there, but those moments only caused me to be more stronger and take in criticism more positively. On another note, I met my fellow blogger friend in Riyadh two days ago, which has been very fulfilling! It's always great to see you Xena!
My Own Flat
Right at the beginning of 2005, I got my very own flat. It seemed like a huge accomplishment to be able to get the furniture and pay for the rent out of my own pocket. I had total creative freedom to decorate my house my own way. Learnt to do cooking, pay bills on time, budget myself, and clean toilets! :)
Right at the beginning of 2005, I got my very own flat. It seemed like a huge accomplishment to be able to get the furniture and pay for the rent out of my own pocket. I had total creative freedom to decorate my house my own way. Learnt to do cooking, pay bills on time, budget myself, and clean toilets! :)
iPod and 80s
The iPod has been a constant companion for me the entire year. Wherever I went, it went with me. No other piece of technology has been so meaningful to me than the iPod. Forget my Sony Walkman, or my Macintosh laptop, the iPod beats them all down. The greatest thing however is that I managed to get all my favorite songs from the 1980s onto my iPod! In addition to this, I am very much intrigued my Blackberry, the latest must-have. Blackberry are the latest devices which is shaped like a small organizer, and basically lets you email, make calls, and organize your diary (calendar, appointments etc). I am setting my next purchase on a Blackberry.
My Birthday
My birthday in year 2005 was one of the best. To have my birthday fall on a weekend, going bowling with my friends, and coming back to do all the cooking proved to be an awesome time for us all as we spent another evening strengthening our friendships.
Medical Mayhems
Three major medical mishaps occurred in 2005. (a)My cornea got scratched! (b)I got severely dehydrated, leading me to endure eight bottles of drips and three days and nights in hospital with no food, losing 7kgs over four days, and (c) finally my surgery in Pakistan (sorry no details there!) These medical mayhems reminded me of how vulnerable my body is. I was reminded over and over how death could strike anytime. These experiences only made me re-evaluate my life and my aspirations and goals, and my focus on God.
Natural Disasters
2005 started off with the devastation caused by the tsunami. Hurricane Katrina damaged southern United States. Bomb attacks took place in the UK in July. While I somewhat identified with these incidents, nothing prepared me for the immense earthquake that struck Northern Pakistan. For weeks, I would be glue to the TV, watching every update and realizing how fast the death toll was escalating. My trip to the earthquake inflicted areas has got to be one of the most important experiences for me as a personal human being. To see my own countrymen, and children especially, broke my heart and rendered my helpless. Thankfully, I did my part to help as much as I could have.
Birth and Death
My nephew Zaeem was born on the 19th August. It was a moment of pure jubilation as we celebrated the arrival of a son in my brother's family. Sadly enough, just three months later, my grandfather passed away. Sometimes it is difficult to accept death of a loved one, but the birth of Zaeem and the death of my Baba only reminded me that God is the one who creates life and takes away life, and it gives me comfort in knowing that He has everything under His control.
Growing, Maturing and Being Wiser
The iPod has been a constant companion for me the entire year. Wherever I went, it went with me. No other piece of technology has been so meaningful to me than the iPod. Forget my Sony Walkman, or my Macintosh laptop, the iPod beats them all down. The greatest thing however is that I managed to get all my favorite songs from the 1980s onto my iPod! In addition to this, I am very much intrigued my Blackberry, the latest must-have. Blackberry are the latest devices which is shaped like a small organizer, and basically lets you email, make calls, and organize your diary (calendar, appointments etc). I am setting my next purchase on a Blackberry.
My Birthday
My birthday in year 2005 was one of the best. To have my birthday fall on a weekend, going bowling with my friends, and coming back to do all the cooking proved to be an awesome time for us all as we spent another evening strengthening our friendships.
Medical Mayhems
Three major medical mishaps occurred in 2005. (a)My cornea got scratched! (b)I got severely dehydrated, leading me to endure eight bottles of drips and three days and nights in hospital with no food, losing 7kgs over four days, and (c) finally my surgery in Pakistan (sorry no details there!) These medical mayhems reminded me of how vulnerable my body is. I was reminded over and over how death could strike anytime. These experiences only made me re-evaluate my life and my aspirations and goals, and my focus on God.
Natural Disasters
2005 started off with the devastation caused by the tsunami. Hurricane Katrina damaged southern United States. Bomb attacks took place in the UK in July. While I somewhat identified with these incidents, nothing prepared me for the immense earthquake that struck Northern Pakistan. For weeks, I would be glue to the TV, watching every update and realizing how fast the death toll was escalating. My trip to the earthquake inflicted areas has got to be one of the most important experiences for me as a personal human being. To see my own countrymen, and children especially, broke my heart and rendered my helpless. Thankfully, I did my part to help as much as I could have.
Birth and Death
My nephew Zaeem was born on the 19th August. It was a moment of pure jubilation as we celebrated the arrival of a son in my brother's family. Sadly enough, just three months later, my grandfather passed away. Sometimes it is difficult to accept death of a loved one, but the birth of Zaeem and the death of my Baba only reminded me that God is the one who creates life and takes away life, and it gives me comfort in knowing that He has everything under His control.
Growing, Maturing and Being Wiser
The greatest experience I have had in the year has been the experience of growing and becoming wiser. From all the above experiences, as well as many more, I have challenged who I am as a person. Do I still hold the same values and ideals? Have these experiences reinforced my beliefs or challenged me? Has anything made me stronger, or weaker? How did I deal with the death of my Baba? All these and more forced me to accept and deal with the challenges as they came hurtling in my path. In the midst of all this, I changed, and I consider myself more wiser than I was at the beginning of the year 2005. Education doesn't stop in school or university; in fact, my whole life is an education for me. I am learning new things each day, and I am being challenged daily, thus making me stronger and wiser.
Happy 2006 to you all!
Mansur
Happy 2006 to you all!
Mansur
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